Monday, June 13, 2005

ive had the worse concert of my life today..

IM SO FREAKING LOUSY..

I dint come for prac on fri coz of some family probs.. went for prac on sat as usual.. den i found out that my pitching was all over the place.. all the problems that nv came out before during normal practices CAME OUT!! cant pitch the stupid G correctly..

it was worse during the concert.. rehearsal was the freaking G again.. almost cant pitch the last note for the opening piece.. during the actual performance, all the top notes i cant get but, well i pitched the last note, but towards the end i actually mispitched.. so disheartening.. third piece as well.. the G tinky.. it was so damn obvious.. was feeling down all the way throughout the rest of the piece until the 2nd last.. finally something gd came out frm the bell.. :) but only lasted for that song lar.. the next song was only so-so..

hai.. why is this kindof thing happening to me???!?!?!?!? usually this feeling i get is during the begining preparations for the concert.. why why why?? can anyone tell me? i jus dont get it.. this is the only thing i can excel in but.. y?? y did it let me rise so high and fall so hard again.. ppl put their trust in me but i disappoint them again n again?? am i thinking too much or wad? i jus wanna do the best in the things i really can excel in.. tt's my wish.. tt's all........

12:11 AM
the scent still lingers