Monday, October 24, 2005
Had an fun n havoc day today.. Met HIM for lunch at jack's place this afternoon and after that we walk aimlessly around city hall area before reaching clark quay.. went to kinokuniya to browse some mags, and went mac to let time pass...[playing poker as well].
And YES!! today I finally went to ESKI bar!!! embience was ok... but the temperature was cool. And I mean really cool.. the first past of the bar was -9 degrees.. The inner part was better, 8 degrees and I drank vodka ribinea..
Then when i got hm, I misinterprete my dad for saing tt he was bringing me to NTUC, when reach then i know was those hokkien singing pub with alot of middle age uncles and anuties dancing.. hahahahahaha... i drank corona.. woo hoo..
PS: jq, corona the lime can put it in the beer itself also :)
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Its almost 3 in the morning and here I am, typing away.. I tried to sleep, but end thinking about things that had happened to me for the past few yrs, and started tearing.. yea I cried.. There are somethings that happened in the past and I really can't say them out.. Not those outrageous things but.. er jus tinks lar..things that I feel so sad and ashamed of.. wad and why the hell did i did those things.. i really cant understand.. and I will remember those things i did for the rest of my life..
Sometimes I just wish that i can forget everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, and start all over again.. like as if I have lose my memory.. then I wouldn't have to remember all the things that made me unhappy about. At least I can sleep better at night, won't have to think so much all the time. Maybe I've watch too much drama about ppl who lose their memory.. In my opinion, they led a better life than before they lose their memory(with or w/o money). If i realy did lose my memory, I guess I'll never want to remember my past again. All those 'unwanted' stuffs.
Now, I'm still ocughing like hell, even after finishing the whole bottle of cough syrup(that was almost a week ago). Its better of course, but all the coughing is really getting to no where. Until as if my head is going to burst, and sometimes i can cough until I got those want-to-vomit feeling. Every morning when i wake up, I'd lose my voice for a while before it comes back but my throat is not that pain though. This is really getting irritating.I think I'm having depression already, since the day after I finished my paper, I've been staying at home, only went out like 4 times, once to the doc, and the other 3 times were to eat. I don't feel and don't have the mood to go out. What is happening to me?